Could the literal singer be the one to get her authentic Feet? He knows more than we know; even when He sends a sign, He already knows if that mission will fail. So I still wonder if the stationery shop means what has actually happened in the Future. Isn't it crazy to think that any possibility can be watched by God as a fully developed story in a parallel universe, since He knows everything that changes when one thing changes? But nothing really changes and no real story is developed when you don't take the only Thing that changes you within. Since I refuse to depart from the little church and go back to falsehood, it's useless to "hope" that one day I will exist again on the unjust side of History.
Thank God whom I don't ever stop working for, it always ends before it can start and go wrong. What can go right when you look away from the Truth? That's the great transgression, the root of all trangressions; you just don't leave the Auto to be in the grand theft again, unless you're willing to be ridiculous and believe in the same "happiness" they're looking for. The ignorant don't have time to stop and search for the Reason that could reveal unto them why it isn't working and never could. Meanwhile, at this stage I have become completely unable to recover my "mind" and waste just one day "thinking" and "feeling" in the same way idolaters do, so that some "communion" might happen.
To tell the Truth, even at an early stage, when you still feel deeply dumb but have already gotten High once, you just can't imagine yourself giving up. Only Out there you will find a Moonworld of wholehearted real men and women. And if you found only the Moon there, It'd still be a greater and better World to live in. There's no Solution for the problem outside the Neighborhood, so why would you divide your heart to "join" somebody who is not a brother or sister, when She has already taught you that the Solution will not flow from them? You know you'd end up broken. Can you make ambitious friends, brothers and sisters who will work to get Her? Your social and professional mission, building your company is foundational.
Can you build a little house with a "lover" who is not a great friend and brother or sister? That's why this philadelphian is never worried if he's gonna be successful on these secondary personal missions, as if I were losing an opportunity of having more daily Progress and Fun than I can achieve by myself. Things change when she can talk and walk too. Then I'd allow myself to experience some good emotional dependence. Although to see her go would be the same nightmare Elise had, I'd still stay focused on the Field.
