It's Not A "Dream"

How do I know? I call and they don't answer; it's "all" dead there. But what if I killed my "self" and I'm the one dead? There's only one Thing left that talks to me. I'm wondering... Was I in the same situation? Was It calling me from the other Side and I was too busy and concentrated on other "things" down there to pick it Up? The problem is now I can't leave this Way so as to be "social" again, because I know I'd be alone and have no Fun on the same side.